In A Nutshell.
[i dunno hu's gonna read tis so e following does not represent anyone else's views nor stands, but mine n mine alone]
e recent events have made me tink alot abt sjab.. n indeed, sjab has taken over a big part of my life. to an extent, sjab is my life. i dare say i've nv regretted joinin sjab, since it's my own decision n responsibility. i rmbed e startin was kinda hard, gettin used 2 e new pple n environment. but u noe wad, i guess i fitted rite in. n up til now, i guess dere's tt passion deep down inside everyone of us tt drives us ahead, despite how much we may dislike all e tekan sessions n changing parades. n i'm happy 2 say tt i've grown wit sjab, especially aft jnco n senco. both camps were equally rewardin n lyk wad someone told me, "zhang da le". unfortunately, different pple haf different expectations. wad i thought was e lowest common denominator is probably jux a standard i haf of myself, n consequently, every1 else as well. isnt it so?
it's all so depressing now. every blog i read depresses me further n it takes me quite alotta courage 2 scroll down e pges. certainly, words r powerful. powerful in hurting. i haf alot, ALOT to say. actually, every1 of us has. but i guess i'm in no position 2 judge n i haf no say. so i'l jux shut my mouth.
it's one thing 2 stand by e side n 2 watch issues emerge, events evolve. it's another thing 2 try 2 look at urself in e same light. n another 2 realise tt there r others who do. my respect goes out 2 e simple hearted. cos they've got sth innate every1 else is tryin so hard 2 attain by means of artificial playwrights.
perception. perception..
in 2005...
i've learnt tt i am indeed a ver flawed person
i've learnt tt i am more flawed than wad i thought myself 2 b
i've learnt tt most flaws r revealed by one's idiosyncracies
i've learnt tt most flaws, as lyk mine, r commited subconsciously, n hence, unless by supernatural intervention or long-term reverse indoctrination, inexorable.
i've learnt tt one's good friends r oso e ones most conscious of your flaws n despite e trouble it takes, they unconditionally accept u anyway
i've learnt tt e better friends will do tt 4 a prolonged period of time, but more than jux appeasement, they wan u 2 b a better person at e same time.
i've learnt tt it's friends tt provide e supernatural intervention n long-term reverse indoctrination
i've learnt tt some friends can tink dota will make u a better person
i've learnt tt true friends believe in mutual compromise
i've learnt tt friendship is more than mutual compromise
i've learnt tt chemistry is not e b all n end all of friendship
i've learnt friendship takes time n cultivation
i've learnt friendship is oways worth e investment
i've learnt tt it's nv worth ending a friendship
i've learnt tt despite havin learnt all tis b4,
sometimes,
it takes e true touch of e heart b4 truly believin in it. ;)
