i'm stil ALIVE!! need.. ..2 breathe! i wld haf died frm heart attack 4 e past few dys. overslept. twice! mux get dada 2 call me up in e morns. 2 all those out dere, squEEzin ur brain cells out 4 e exams, ALL THE BEST! aahaa.
read thru my last post n truely, as rykiel labelled it, it is really dark. n i realised, i've nv really 4gotten abt it.
can friendship be saved when it's already torn? pple r oways tellin me 2 not take 4 granted e pple i haf ard me, not even e slightest things. 4 once lost, we may nv b able 2 find em again. so den, can lost friends b found?
it hurts e most when dey mean so much 2 u. at some point. but pple change. yet when it turns sour, u try hard 2 salvage wtvr tt's left. really, it takes 2 hands to clap. or rather, 3. wad happens if u're e onli 1 makin all e effort but 2 no avail? dere's onli 1 last sol. tho hard & cruel it may seem, when it's time, it's time. it may lead 2 future regrets but when dere's no present, wad more can we ask frm e future? jux drop.
now only i am here
lost a few friends once so dear
e memories i wil oways hold
rmind me now
2 let go.
enuf of e sad stuff. i've been tinkin abt my dreams n many of em r actually kinda .. ..rubbishy. n far-fetched.
1. pilot
2. psychologist
3. fireman? woman, in tis case.
4. NAVY!!! *gleams*
5. happily married 2 a rich oil tycoon's son. preferably, very gd-lookin!
6. (k, tis's e newest) secret agent!
aahaa. or mayb.. ..i shld jux b contented wit a post as an office clerk, somewhere in 1 of e buildings in city hall? NAH. anw, it doesnt matter if i dun grow up 2 b a degree-holder someday. but til den, i reallie needa find tt fabled oil tycoon's son b4 i get hauled outta skool 4 lousy results! haa.
true, pple turn great wit their dreams. but wad if ur dream seems rather far off & unreachable? do we gif up, or pursue endlessly wit no outcome? (hints at eugenia: dere's reallie no need 2 hallucinate. psychologist? mayb. u wont b e 1 i'd approach even if i go terribly gone case n try 2 kill even my mother. waha)
& i'm dyin 2 grow up!!! tho taima says she's feelin old, bein 17. haa! but i envy tt freedom tt u get, e feelin of takin off tho u're not exactly flyin. e dys when u can cum home real late w/o any1 questioning - tt trust u get frm parents! us, wantin 2 grow up. & adults wishin dey cld b kids again.
life's hard. n i hate it when pple threaten 2 kill emselves cos of sum stupid breakup wit their bfs or when dey get a zero on their report cards. if dere's a hundred steps in front of u, u gotta take e 1st step 2 get gg. & stop self-pitying. dun gif tt talk abt "i'm gonna jump!" or "i'll show it 2 u!" well, go ahead n die. e world'l b a better place w/o u guys.
n choosin death doesnt mean u show no fear. it jux says tt u dun haf e courage 2 face up 2 life.
cowards.
