random.
recently got back a "student personality profile report" our class did when we were sec 1. yea, 3yrs ago. -.- n i guess sum of e stuff tt's assessed frm e test stil kinda relates 2 me tho it's taken yrs ago. n it's concluded tt my greatest fear is - being criticized, especially by a close friend or relative. rite on.
antagonism, criticism. i really am greatly affected by em. seriously, even a "go-n-die" comment can kick me hard. i guess how i reflect in other pple's minds is of great significance n i cant help but oways tink, "does he/she tink of me tt way? am i really that badly portrayed?" i've definitely been criticised at sum points of my life but r dey really facts, or simply sumelse's perceptions of me? i seriously doubt myself sumtimes.
n i loathe pple hu gif labels. ok, i'm pissed. tt's y i'm writing tis.
personally, i'm not a judgemental person; i dun judge pple by their appearances n gif em brands. n i dun label pple jux bcos of their speech or their set of actions. unfortunately, sum pple do. i mean, looks doesnt mean everythin n more importantly, u cant haf ur character written all over ur face. i dun really tink u can understand sum1 through their actions or behaviours. sum pple dun show themselves on e superficial side; sumtimes, wad u c isnt wad u get. if u're not "him" or "her", how in e world wld u noe wad "he" or "she" feels? how wld u noe e reasons behind his or her every actions? u dun stupidly assume e other party's motives n judge em accordingly. u're not em. no, u're not me.
but i've learnt 2 take criticisms. mayb it's a gd thing once in a while tt sum1 cums up 2 u n criticises u directly. but pls, 4 heaven's sake, dun base criticisms on false judgements. i guess it's impossible 2 let 6 billion pple on earth understand ur "suo zuo suo wei". on top of tt, different pple c things @ different angles. u cant force everyone 2 tink tis specific way u wan em 2 n i dun haf e ability 2 brainwash pple anw. so i guess i'm jux gonna let criticisms pass on n believe in myself. aft all, dey're not me, so dey'l nv understand.
mayb u dun understand me at all.
besides, i'm curious. those hu luv 2 criticise, haf u guys eva wondered how pple will feel aft ur criticisms?? do u even realise how powerful words can b? a simple "stupid" can deem hurt 2 e person. humans arent made 2 go ard, shooting their mouths off wit crude language. so b4 u label anyone, tink twice whether u mean wad u really say. u wldnt wan 2 realise in e end tt u're e one hu's wrong all along. by den, it wld haf been too late. even 4 regrets n apologies.
cum 2 tink of it, 'emily rose' is a cool name!
